Bubble, bubble, toil and trouble
“Home.
I can’t say where it is
But I know I’m going
Home.
That’s where the hurt is.”
~ U2: Walk On
emotional tension about going home is building. all of the things Vancouver represents (and used to represent) are bubbling to the surface. compartmentalization is falling apart. denial is rather dramatically splitting at the seams. i will only be there for 18 hours. and i have decided not to see Jonathan.
add to that two weeks of exam stress, and i might very well have a break-down walking through international arrivals at YVR. thank goodness a super awesome friend will be waiting for me on the other side. and another has made impeccable Saturday morning breakfast reservations.
home. i’m going home. : )
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April 15th, 2008 at 7:30 am
:-)
April 15th, 2008 at 9:27 am
You are so dang strong, I know that you will do just fine. Remember that it is darkest just before the sun breaks through. So, think of your time in BC as the final hoop/hurdle/brick wall.
In fact, it’s almost no surprise to me that you have to do something really hard before you get to go home. I mean, I would expect nothing less of you. You are *not* the type to take the easy road. But you do take the high road. so I know you will be just fine.
Much goodness!
Ky
April 15th, 2008 at 12:01 pm
If you need an extra hug while you’re here, you know how to find me :)
April 15th, 2008 at 12:23 pm
Dear Jennifer,
hope you are well even with all the exam’s and the going back to Vancouver stress. Remember that sometimes, a breakdown can do good, because all that stress needs to come out eventually… I know that if I do fight my breakdowns, they will get back at me eventually. So I just let the emotions be. And when we are being surrounded by family and friends, the recovery is so much faster!
Take care and have a great week!
April 15th, 2008 at 4:34 pm
i’m betting it will be nice to set foot on canadian soil again and you may even be able to get some snow ;-) at some point …
breakdowns often lead to beautiful release, this i know for sure … have a beautiful trip, xo
April 15th, 2008 at 5:22 pm
Enjoy your time at home! Savor each and every moment, even the bittersweet ones. Soon enough you will be on another plane returning to the island. I found it a bit difficult to return to my island after enjoying the “spoils” of home, so be sure to pamper yourself in all the goodness of home.
Who knows? You might decide that you even miss your island a tiny bit! To that point, enjoy your time on the island, which it appears you are. Before you know it you will be in the rat race of clinicals and USMLEs, and you might long for the snail’s pace of island life.
Good luck as you allow yourself to reflect on the emotional roller coaster you have undoubtedly been on the past few months. Remember, granulation tissue makes us stronger, and we don’t get granulation tissue without wounds. It’s ok to take off the Band-Aid and let the wound breath a little.
April 15th, 2008 at 6:11 pm
The hugs you get will likely be the bestest hugs you’ve received to date. Guaranteed.
Here’s a virtual one…:-)
April 16th, 2008 at 6:37 am
Wow, only a couple more days and you’ll be home. Enjoy your break and spending time with your adorable canine buddy. Congratulations on making it through another semester!
April 16th, 2008 at 10:48 am
I admire your strength… :)
Can’t wait to hear all about your SK adventures – you’re almost there! YAY!
April 16th, 2008 at 11:59 am
Jen,
Hang in there girl, this part is almost over.
Enjoy the breakfast and your time in SK.
Need another Maddy fix.