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Archive for May, 2008

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today is the only one we get

dear Nevis,

how are you? over the previous months, i have often felt like we were in a long-distance relationship even though you are just outside my front door.

but not this month. with a car, i am seeing more of you than ever and it’s exciting to learn new things about you every day. i love seeing where some of your unnamed roads meander without meaning, like short stories made longer with the adventure of telling.

i spent part of this month with wonderful marvelous Tiffany and she introduced me to a whole new side of you that i never would have experienced on my own. just seeing you through her eyes was fascinating and enlightening. you are the kind of island that likes to stay up all night partying, but you are also the type of island that can curl up with a good book in the hammock and doze sleepily for hours on end.

coconut hunting in the jungle

i met a few more people that were born or raised here, from porters across the street to beach vendors selling strange looking pipes that sorta look like the animal they were meant to represent if you turn your head just so… i also met some of the guys from Missouri that are down here on 3 or 4 week rotations drilling into your volcanic rock looking for geothermal power. apparently, they have dug a hole as far down as Mount Nevis is high!

May is also the month that brought itty bitty attack kitty into my home. nobody believes that i will be able to eventually give up the adorable little guy to a more permanent family, but i’m prepared to prove them all wrong. oh, the lack of faith! i’m actually getting quite practiced at this love-and-let-go thing.

the weather is getting more varied. are you bracing for hurricane season? the rains seem to be coming back slowly but surely. my front lawn is dry and prickly and brown, but the shady back is tall and green. there have been a couple of mornings where i looked out the front window (and glanced at the noisily drumming roof) and have been thankful i don’t need to bring a full spare set of clothes to school. i miss my bike, but i really like staying mostly dry and not toweling off with paper products in the school bathroom.

as usual, the month positively flew by. this time last year, i was en route to Zambia. can you believe it? can you believe everything that has happened in these 12 short months?

i can hardly imagine what the next 11 will hold.

lotsa love,
`Jennifer XO

itty bitty attack kitty

“Cats seem to go on the principle that it never does any harm to ask for what you want.”
~ Joseph Wood Krutch

ask?

more like tackle first and ask later.

although, there’s something to be said for not worrying about the fact that your intended tacklee is 150x bigger than you. guess i’ll keep that in mind every time i sit down at my desk this weekend…

happy weekend! happy Friday! have a good one!

“Plans are only good intentions unless they immediately degenerate into hard work.”
~ Peter Drucker

“Act as if it were impossible to fail.”
~ Dorothea Brande

“If you have made mistakes, even serious ones, there is always another chance for you. What we call failure is not the falling down but the staying down.”
~ Mary Pickford

block 1 grades are in and apparently i did much a much better job of socializing than studying during the first three weeks of the semester.

crap.

very mediocre grades with a splash of suck really hasn’t given me any breathing room from now until August. needless to say, i won’t be around much on email or facebook or flickr or wherever.

frig.

i am annoyed at myself. for losing my groove. for getting distracted. i am even currently annoyed at myself for being so hard on myself. does that sound twisted? yah, it probably is.

everything will be fine, i know. it’s just never any fun to try and climb out of a hole, no matter how shallow it is. yes, i passed everything and yes i did fine, but i don’t think we need to have the conversation about how “fine” isn’t good enough. remember? we had this chat. very near the top of my priority list is looking good on paper and i’m okay with that. i’m okay with the doors it will eventually open even though i’m closing some others during my short time here.

life is still good. hard work is always good. : )

we're undercover battling pink robots

In the end, though, maybe we must all give up trying to pay back the people in this world who sustain our lives. In the end, maybe it’s wiser to surrender before the miraculous scope of human generosity and to just keep saying thank you, forever and sincerely, for as long as we have voices.

~ Elizabeth Gilbert

another care package arrived today! but let me back up a bit… when Kev heard i ended up all the way in Saskatchewan without my old 1st generation click-wheel iPod, he wanted to make the super long trip back to Nevis a bit better.

unfortunately, FedEx had other ideas and the iPod arrived in Moose Jaw a few days after i had already left.

her name is Yoshimi* because i need a good black belt in karate at my side to help defeat those evil machines. she would never let those robots eat me. and the inscription on the back is in reference to what it’s really like to go to med school.

thanks, Kev. you totally rock. i can hardly wait for you to come visit in August. there is SO much Carib drinking to be done.

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*speaking of names, i have been calling itty bitty kitty Minoru Fujita after a Japanese wrestler born on my birthday with finishing moves like the Dragon Suplex and Modified Wrist-Clutch Northern Light Bomb. i’m sure his real owner will rename him next week.

expired

“Do not, for one repulse, forego the purpose that you resolved to effect.”
~ William Shakespeare

whew. i really don’t think it went as well as i hoped, but won’t count my eggs until they’re hatched. or scrambled up for breakfast.

genetics
- the human genome
- chromosomes
- cell division
- human gametogenesis and fertilization
- medical relevance of mitosis and meiosis
- gene organization and structure
- gene expression, regulation and variation
- developmental biology
- genes and environment
- indications for and methods of prenatal diagnosis
- genetic counseling

>> most interesting thing learned: nondisjunction during anaphase of female gametogenesis is the most common mutational mechanism responsible for fetal chromosomal abnormalities. what do all those words mean? females are born with all of the eggs we will ever have. they are all sitting in us arrested in a stage of division that only progresses once each month. as a woman gets older, the chances of problems occurring with that monthly division increase dramatically. if the cell divides improperly, two chromosomes might end up in one cell. and if that cell gets fertilized by a sperm, then the fetus will have one extra chromosome in every new cell. a common example of this is the presence of 3 copies of chromosome 21, called Down Syndrome.

and then the stork flies away with the empty blanket. the end.

neuroscience
- organization of the nervous system
- general anatomy of the brain
- neurobiology of neuron and neuroglia
- general anatomy of the spinal cord
- lateral and anterior spinothalamic tracts
- posterior and anterior spinocerebellar tracts
- dorsal column/medial lemniscus
- cuneocerebellar, spinotectal, spino-olivary and spinoreticular tracts
- corticospinal motor tract
- reticulospinal, tectospinal, rubrospinal and vestibulospinal tracts
- reflex arc
- upper and lower motor neurons
- first, second, third order neurons
- dermatomes
- peripheral nerves & receptors
- Tabes Dorsalis, Brown-Sequard, Syringomyelia, Poliomyelitis, ALS
- complete/central/anterior cord syndrome
- spinal shock

>> most interesting thing learned: pretend you have brain damage at the back of your head. neurons from your eyes have to travel all the way to the back of your head (inefficient, i know!) in order to deliver messages about what you’re seeing. interrupt that pathway by blowing up the delivery station and even if your eyes are fine, you will be blind and unable to see a thing. it’s like you’re sitting in a completely dark room. BUT, if someone flashes a light to one side of the room, your head will still orient in the direction of the flash even though you can’t see it! this is due to the fact that the reflex arc in the tectospinal tract is nowhere near the occipital area and will still be intact if you only damage the back of the cortex. this phenomenon is called “blindsight”.

this is my favourite class. unfortunately, we started off with the less-than-exciting spinal cord. i want to get to the real brain stuff! on Wednesday we head back to the cadaver lab to look at real brains before studying textbook ones.

immuno/microbiology
- innate immunity
- antibody structure & generation of diversity
- major histocompatibility complex
- development & activation of T lymphocytes
- properties and functions of effector T cells
- B cell development and function
- activation of complement: classical, alternative, mannose-binding
- antigen-antibody laboratory tests
- immunological memory and secondary immune response
- vaccination
- childhood immunization schedule
- transplantation immunology

>> most interesting thing learned: there are three types of organ transplant rejection. hyperacute rejection can occur on the operating table when the recipient’s antibodies immediately attack the donor organ and occlude the blood vessels to prevent vascularization. acute rejection can occur days later when T cells attack the organ graft and destroy it. chronic rejection may take months or years to develop and involves a B cell response that thickens the vessel walls, reducing blood flow to the donor organ.

even though there are way too many CDs and CRs and ILs and IFNs and CCLs and HLAs, i learned this class might not be as intimidating as initially expected. it’s starting to feel like MED 1 and 2 were all about learning how things “should” work and we’re now getting deep into when things go wrong and the fact that they very often do. needless to say, the immune system is super amazing and i’m thankful for the way it keeps my body tick-tocking along.

epidemiology
- what is epidemiology?
- history
- changing patterns of mortality
- global burden of disease
- prevalence & incidence
- crude, category-specific and adjusted rates
- measures of association
- standardized mortality ratios
- attributable risk
- write a 3-4 page paper on a health issue in your town/county/state/etc

>> most interesting thing learned: i learned that Dr. Avery would like his kids to send him to a cruise ship instead of a nursing home. he hated gymnastics in school and will fail you out of the class if you don’t call “soccer” by its’ real name “football”. he believes the Republicans in America are making the country fat by secretly adding high-fructose corn syrup to every item in the grocery store from corn flakes to pasta sauce.

oh, and i think we learned an equation or two that we’ll need for Step 1. my assignment paper was on Moose Jaw as West Nile Virus capital of North America (2004).

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looking for MED 1? or MED 2?

“Cats regard people as warm-blooded furniture.”
~ Jacquelyn Mitchard

Joyce hasn’t come up with anything other than “baby cat” yet. that’s what block weekends do to our brains, i guess.

in the meantime, he is getting MUCH bigger and has:

- met his shadow
- learned how to climb up on the couch
- much later, learned how to get down
- figured out that big toes are good for attacking
- developed an appetite that could feed an army of ten his size
- consistently used the litterbox
- inconsistently waited in the litterbox until he was done done before running into the office
- learned to maneuver RIGHT under my feet while i’m walking
- figured out that me hovering in the kitchen might mean i have food so he should me-owl as loud as possible whenever i’m standing anywhere near the fridge or sink.

he’s a fun handful. a lotta fun and a little handful. the fleas are still gone and his eyes are getting clearer each day. something about doing nothin’ but sleeping and eating and playing all day that will fix what ails ya. lesson learned.

hiding out

Block 1 exams start tomorrow at 9am. yeesh.

i feel unusually overwhelmed and underprepared, so… internetz going off. email shut down. i might even unplug the modem. back with the usual block re-cap sometime Monday-ish.

have a great weekend!

tiny flea infested thing

Joyce showed up on my porch last night with a tiny little flea-infested thing that showed up on her porch earlier in the evening. she is allergic and has absolutely no idea what to do with small helpless living things that meow, other than teach them how to be a dog when they grow up. “can we keep it in that box?” she asked while pointing to something that was barely big enough to house a wireless modem at one point in its’ career.

he is currently sequestered in my spare bathroom with an old towel and plate of condensed milk until i can deal with the bugs, get a litterbox, and find him a more permanent home.

i can’t get over how much he looks like Clover. which makes me nervous because that cat was in!sane!

red-plate rental 470

it was raining (POURING) earlier this morning and all i could think was “gee, i’m glad i’m not riding my bike today.”

what a wimp.

i am now renting a car. a dark green 4-door Suzuki Escudo to be more precise. i expect to keep it through hurricane season and plan to hop back on my beloved Brodie Dynamo sometime in the fall. by that time i’ll probably need a little exercise to get rid of the extra pounds gained from sitting around on my butt all day.

yes Rob (if you’re reading this), i brought Kensington all the way down here. he was a great guardian angel in the old truck for years and years, so i figured he’d appreciate being reinstated. i need all the protection from flat tires, unpredictable livestock, and other crazy drivers that i can get.

MED 3 starts May 6th (alternate title: proof i am doing something other than watching Dr. Phil and Oprah and shopping)

writing less than usual (both here and on email), i know.

working my butt off this block and getting outside the house more to try and prove to myself that i can balance work and play. this time next week, i should know whether the experiment has failed miserably.

in the meantime, i’m super good great awesome blissfully happy. ridiculously happy. i’m almost embarrassed to admit how happy i am because it has been verging on “giddy” for weeks and weeks now. even C3b2Bbs can’t get me down.

i hope life is just as good over there.