“He felt that his whole life was some kind of dream and he sometimes wondered whose it was and whether they were enjoying it.”
~ Douglas Adams
“Dreams pass into the reality of action. From the actions stems the dream again; and this interdependence produces the highest form of living.”
~ Anaïs Nin
days are passing in a blur. sometimes i can’t tell if i’m coming or going, dreaming or sleepwalking.
in a nutshell: discovered my “recommended” wedding dress seamstress can’t sew a straight line. drove 9 hours round-trip to surprise Tina for her 33rd birthday. missing Brandon like crazy because doing stuff without him just isn’t as fun. dad had arthroscopy on his knee last week. mom had bloodwork done. wedding errand day today, but it’s the long weekend so everything is closed. looking at spending a few internet hours “catching up”. just plain grouchy some days for no good reason. feeling bad for my mom dealing with the grouchies. had eye twitch and then it went away. Maddy is good. family is good. studying is good. RSVPs are rolling in. excited every time we get a “YES!” and sorta sad with every “regretfully declines” because we love you all and want to see everyone even if you’re halfway across the continent. wishing that renting the “good” portable toilets didn’t cost $800. the sun is trying to shine. mom mowed the front lawn and it’s a gorgeous green. spring might actually be here. my coffee needs refilling.
happy to have great family. happy to have great friends.
happily dreaming and living my dreams.
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photo: Tina & Kevin at their lovely old falling down farmhouse.
is that de-friended tina from the old days?
What a great picture :)
$800 for potties seems a logical contribution to the grouchies. Perhaps diapers are a cheaper alternative? Then dealing with all the other little chores that must pile up coordinating many travellers and a big event. All that and oh yeah whilst nurturing your brain to be the smartest one it can be.
Surely the biggest irritant though is that you and B are apart…
But the dress, well there’s just no excuse for it! And not much you can do about it now but see those flaws as part of the dream story :)
Hugs!
I think the dress maybe represents something more. Like how our relationship won’t ever be perfect and I am sure I will sew some crooked lines into it, but hopefully with the help of family and eachother we can get the seam out and straighten it eventually and all will be perfect again in the end. :)
:-) i love what brandon said, what a great metaphor for your love!!
xox
I’ve managed to bite my tongue, but the eyes are still rolling