i am so stressed out that i have turned into a person that yells at their own wonderful mother and says things to purposely try and make her feel as bad as i do. what am i, 16?? i desperately want to be able to say “it’s fine, i can do it on my own” and i desperately want my family to say “no, we’re not tired of helping you! we could do it forever!”
Brandon left at 4am. which means i will be holed up in the attic going crazy by myself for the next few days. i have a couple of pre-published posts for Tuesday and Wednesday.
what’s my plan of attack? do as many questions as possible, eat as much comfort food as possible and sleep as much as possible.
see you Thursday.
PS: Maddy’s leg is much better. she is now on the old lady diet of j/d and glucosamine.
PPS: thanks for all the comments about the Travelocity pile o’ crap. we have an appointment with my bank today to figure out how to file a fraudulent charge. and being sad doesn’t mean i have stopped fighting. it just means being mad was taking a lot out of me (see above and send sympathy thoughts to my mother). i promise to follow up on all of your consumer links and tips late next week. it’s funny how $4000 can stop being a lot of money when you actually need another $40,000 for tuition.
$5 is a lot of money if your purse is empty. I once dug through my couch, my car, my bed, my floors, my drawers, old purses to come up with money to buy my son diapers.
having said that…..what you are experiencing is plain ole’
stress stress stress
I know I’m not a doctor…but er…uh…I’m your bloggie pal and I perscribe
wine wine wine.
Yah..that’s it…take 2 wine bottles and call me in the morning. haaaaaaaaa I crack myself up if nothing else.
ha!!!
If you take two wine bottles you won’t be calling anyone in the morning because your head will be in the toilet.
Breathe. Deeply. Slowly. And preferably under the shade of a tree or a porch.
xox
stop studying.
What Christina said :) *hug*
**HUGS** You are permitted to lose your shit every once in awhile, Jen. Everybody does, even the superhuman. :-D
Your mom knows that you love and appreciate her.
Try to burn off some of that excess stress/energy/frustration at the gym. And have those two bottles of wine (but share them with your mamma and sis!)
And repeat…it will all be over soon!
chill! you’re gonna be step high scored and married SO soon! as smart as you are and as hard as you study, if anyone is going to ace the thing it’s you. (um i read the island med student blog so don’t forget advil and it’s-fun-being-a-girl supplies just incase.) good luck! i’ll be crossing my fingers for you!
You will do awesome. Anyone who can continue to deal with all the crap including me and still continually do amazing on practice tests will do great. I will be praying for you on the 8th. Love you tons and you are awesome babe!!
Dear Jen,
i am sure you will do amazingly in your test. Do maybe a few yoga’s sun salutations? It is very beneficial in stressfull times. And as Christina said, you definitely have to keep breathing deeply.
Take care dear Jen! You will do great things!
Hi Jen,
this is part of it.. don’t feel guilty and don’t feel bad. the ones they love understand you. plus, you just have to go through hell to get out of it. sending you loads of love and positive energy from across the ocean :) Elif, xox
Hi Jen,
this is part of it.. don’t feel guilty and don’t feel bad. the ones they love you understand you. plus, you just have to go through hell to get out of it. sending you loads of love and positive energy from across the ocean :) Elif, xox
As I will probably forget tomorrow… Best of luck for Wednesday, I know you’ll ace it!
xx
The great thing about mamas is that they always love you, no matter what. I’m sure she understands your stress. You have SO much on your plate right now, add on top of all that an unjust non-refunded refund. I’d have lost it a long time ago. You are doing great. Give your mom a surprise hug, and you’ll both be puddles of tears. Love and forgiveness all around. I love you and believe in you!
Gosh you people are sappy
Good luck on Wednesday Jen!!! Then you shall be stressed no more!